Archives for the month of: March, 2014

happinessblog
“You’re always so happy.” That’s what someone said to me the other night. I believe I made some kind of comment, and smiled, but here is what I’d love to tell her:

I haven’t always been “happy.” I’ve done things that hurt people. I’ve made poor choices. I didn’t know what I wanted. Sometimes my outgoing and confident demeanor looked like happiness (and maybe I was happy in that moment) but I was really just confused and lost.

I needed to forgive myself. I needed to care about other people more. I needed to figure out what I wanted and needed in my life. I needed people in my life that would listen to me, stand up to me, and then fight the good fight with me.

I was someone who moved all the time. I moved jobs, moved homes, changed relationships etc. I needed to feel secure in order to start working on myself. Once I felt grounded, secure, and safe in my environment, the real work began.

The question of, “What do I want” became very important. What did I want out of my relationship, out of a career, or out of myself?

My answers surprised me at times because they were very different from the life I’d been living. I wanted security, I wanted faith, and I wanted to build my own career. This was all exciting, but it was also uncomfortable.

The happiness that I show today is genuine. It radiates through me, and it’s contagious. I’ve realized that married life suits me, spirituality grounds me, and living in abundance is freeing.

Do you want to know how I got to this state of happiness?

  1. I took a hard look at my beliefs
  2. I let go
  3. I gave love, and felt gratitude
  4. I sought out knowledge
  5. I communicated my needs
  6. I believed

I had some deep seeded issues around the word “God” that I needed to figure out. I was raised Roman Catholic, and I’m openly gay. I needed to embrace that “God” could mean anything I wanted it to mean. Today I say “God Source Energy” because it gives me a feeling of loving light verses an actual person.

I reached out to people that I had hurt in the past, and then I forgave myself. I needed to let go of that weight and move forward. I also needed to let go of any ties that were unhealthy. I was no longer interested in the casual friendships that were based on fake intent. I began to focus on friendships that were genuine, healthy, and honest. I’ll be honest, I have very few close friends, but this works for me.

I learned that I had a lot of love to give. I was ready to settle down and create a family. I don’t have a traditional life, or a traditional family, and for that I’m grateful. My wife, two dogs, and I live on a sailboat. That kind of adventurous life truly speaks to me. I am grateful everyday for my home, my four legged companions, and my incredible wife.

I was ready to learn more about spirituality and metaphysical teachings. I researched places, tried them out, and found a home. I spent a lot of time learning, and then I chose what I liked out of what I had learned. This became my passion, and my career field.

I needed to be clear about what I wanted. I needed to be clear with myself, and my wife. By communicating my desires to my wife, I learned that she is truly supportive (though she does not always understand), and I confirmed that these were actually my desires. Sometimes we need to say our desires out loud and have them heard by others. Creating a vision board is another beautiful way to display our desires.

After group discussions, seeking published material, and meditating, I now believe that life is ours to mold. I choose to believe that I am on a straight path to success, and that I will be surrounded with abundance, and all that is good. This is not for everyone, but I prefer to live in freedom and happiness. I prefer to focus on the positive side of life, and live with my arms wide open, ready for all the good that is coming my way. And guess what? It works!

I no longer feel like I’m in the dark. I have a mission, a purpose, and a belief. My past brought me to where I am today, and for that I am grateful, but now I choose to live in the light.

Thank you for reading this. I hope it helps you in some way. What is your story?

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I’ve had a song lyric stuck in my head the past couple days, pretty normal right? Well, the thing is, I suck at song lyrics! I looked up the lyrics today, and of course the words in my head are not the actual words to the song.

I believe that we should listen to those “voices” in our head. You can call it intuition, messages from Spirit, or a sign. Whatever you call it, pay attention to it.

The song lyric I have in my head is, “I’m beginning to be an optimist about this…and if you close your eyes, does it almost feel like nothing aged at all.”

The actual lyric is “How am I gonna be an optimist about this?… But if you close your eyes, does it almost feel like nothing changed at all?”*

It’s okay to laugh. Ellen DeGeneres loves to expose people for their inability to know song lyrics. I simply believe that we hear what we need to hear.

Look at the two versions of the lyrics above, which seems more positive? Considering I’m a pretty positive person, it makes sense that I would hear the lyrics in that way.

I have some big shifts going on in my life right now, and guess what? I AM beginning to feel optimistic about this! I feel that this is a sign from my Angels/Guides/internal intuition that I’m on the right path. It’s a sign that says, “Don’t worry. Everything is going to be GREAT.”

Have you been listening to your internal voice? What is it saying to you?

 

*The song is Pompeii by Bastille

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Some might think our path is unusual, but this path is strong, and filled with deep, penetrating thought.

It is doable, but will take courage, strength, and trust. Each step along this path is taken with deliberate action.

You are not alone on this journey. Those around you are there to help, because we are all heading in the same direction. We each have our own reasons for walking this path, and our goals may be different, but we have chosen this journey.

With each step forward we are making room for others to join. We must work together. Our individual strengths are needed to achieve the overall goal.

Our path may be challenging, but we can see where we are going.

Trust is key. You must trust yourself, others around you, and trust each and every step you take.

The tree is a symbol of being grounded, strong, and flexible. Carry these characteristics with you on this journey.

The chalice is a reminder of why we are on this path. What you feel within you will always be your guiding light.

We are light workers. We face the light, embrace the light, and walk towards the light.

I am honored to be on this path with all of you.

 

This was information I received through Clairaudience and Clairvoyance. I wanted to share it with you to see if anyone else has had similar visions.

A special thank you to my wife, Lynda von Witt, for illustrating my vision.

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